To Be or Not To Be... Tis Nobler...

My passion is theatre. I have always had a love for the stage, and not usually to be on it. Give me a light and I am going to be the girls on the head set in the back calling all the shots. I haven't done anything for quite awhile, I've been missing it sooooooooo much!! This weekend the theatre group I am in did a main stage performance, "The Complete Works of William Shakespeare (Abridge)" I only got to come in for the last week of work, which is named "Hell Week". I forgot how much I love it. And I also forgot how hard it is. I have been going non-stop for a week now. It was nice because my new Dr just put me on pain killers and steroids. So I have been ignoring the pain but it all came crashing on me today. My knee is soo swollen I'm actually worried about it, ugh. Its sitting at about twice its nomal size. I am going to give it a day for two and hope it goes down before calling the Dr.
I also got to spend the week hanging out with Pooh and Rabbit. They have been wonderful. They have gotten to hang out and play together. In fact I belive they are building a tunnel to China as I type. I hate that I have to go home tomorrow and leave Pooh for two weeks, but I am going to get her for a few days during Thanksgiving.

'Ello...

A late Happy Samhaine to all... or Happy Halloween to those who aren't pagan. A very Happy Celtic New Year to all... hope this year goes better than the last, wishing everyone as pain free as possible year.

I did mostly nothing for Samhaine, feel sorta sheepish about that but... well had plans, plans feel thru and so goes the story of my life.

I finally got my meds filled... ah the sweet relief, i am totally enjoying it while it lasts... I honestly hate being on pain killers, but they make life so much easier... I am me, if only for a little while... possible ever super me... I can't imagine what life is like being so pain free... and I will never have to.. *pout pout*

I got to hang out with some old 'friends' and can't wait because this week I get to hang out with lots of old friends that I am missing terrible... hopefully the drugs will get me thru without incident... There is going to be theater this coming weekend and Pooh has three soccer games... I am so content...

Who knew that having the ability to clean would make someone soooooo happy...

REALLY... Seriously

Went to the doctor yesterday... Um.. now I remember why I hate going.
I know its always good to know whats going on, just because it had a name doesn't mean its going to affect me anymore or less. Now I have SLE, Fibromialgia, CREST Syndrome, and RA. My doctor was concerned that I hadn't been treated for these. None of these have cure, only treatment that MIGHT slow down the progress. I am not to happy about it all at the moment, I am sure I will come to deal with it and be just fine. Right now I am going to have my pitty party and then I will go find an lawyer to get my disability. My doctor told me that she doubted anyone would be able to work with all these together, if I had just one of them then I might be able to work. I have to stop being selfish and stubborn and get my disability to take care of my daughters. They need the money more than I need my damn pride. So... here I go... keeping my head up and putting one foot in front of the other...

Life and Tattoos

I still do not have access to a computer. Today I have been able to borrow a computer. Life is upside down. I am working on getting a job and place to live.
I went the other day I went and got my butterfly tattoo re-done. I am very impressed with the out come of the new tatoo.
I have a doctors appointment on the 27th, can't wait. I wish there was some way to go all natural but I haven't found anyone I could afford to go see. So... until I can figure that out I am going to take the meds the regular doctor puts me on.

Computers

Sorry to anyone who was wanting to check my blog. I am usually more on top of this but my computer won't connect to the internet. I have even gone to the libaray but they will not let me get on blogspot. Arrggg...
I have a wonderful week with my daughters. Then I had a rockin' get together with the ladies from LFAM. I meet a bunch of wonderful women who know exactly how I feel. I am all geared up for the Walk. I hope that the money raised can bring a support group to Auburn/Opelika.
I had tons of other things to write about my my brain has said NO. Guess I will try later.

Sun... Swimming... Sisters

I have had both Pooh and Rabbit this week. I actually got them out in the pool yesterday, by myself. It ended up hurting a little bit but was worth it. I have a feeling when I get back home I am going to sleep for two days. I miss my boyfriend, he does so much for me in the morning. Well he does a bunch for me all the time. He is coming tomorrow to spend the night. He had to work all week and has to leave early saturday to get to work.
I am taking both the girls to spend time with Daddy Z. It is Rabbit's birthday gift from Daddy Z and Gwyn. While I am up that way I am going a meeting for the Walk for Lupus Now in Birmingham, AL. My team isn't that big yet but I have plans to increase the size.
I was thinking today, I need a 'bucket list'. Not sure what is going to be on it yet,but I am going to work on my bucket list.

Crash

My laptop, the only computer I have constant access to CRASHED! Blue screen of death and everything! Wonderful! Fantastic! So now I have to wait till we have money to fix it.
Mary from LFAM called me a few days ago, asking if I was attending the meeting for Walk for Lupus Now. I want to attend. I have plans to attend, but I can't remember the last time I set in stone anything. Hell even my doctors appointments are not for sure. I want to go, I want to start a support group in Auburn. I want a cure, but baby steps.
Hands are to swollen...