Mommy's Broken: Life with Lupus: Eh

11.19.2008

Eh

Worked today... work tomorrow... fun fun... I am still liking my job and they are liking me....
Feel like I'm dying because I miss my girls sooooooooo very much... but I hope that I can be a better mother, if I ever get to see Pooh. Her father is mad at me, with good reason, but due to this I have been told that I am not only going to get to see her if I come up there and take her out. I can't have her spend the night because she can't be around my boyfriend. I understand, may not agree, but understand. Its all up to him anyway.

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Anonymous20.11.08
Hang in there! Livin' with LUPUS ain't easy!
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Why Mommy's Broken?

I have two little girls. Trying to get them to understand that Mommy isn't like all the other Mommies is much harder than you'd think. Doing it while trying not to scare them is even harder. I wanted to give them something they would understand on their level but wouldn't be lost on someone else. So I started by telling them that Mommy was broken, as to not tell them I am sick. Sick people get better, mommy doesn't. There are days when Mommy can get up and run around and do all those wonderful things; But there are days when Mommy has to stay in bed and rest. They have been able to take this information and be at ease about Mommy not being 'normal' or 'healthy'. Now I have a new challange of trying to let them know that mommy is not going to get to live as long as most other people. Telling your kids you are going to die is alot harder than you'd think.